and in my dreams
a million frames of light form only a few seconds
i find a different thought/feeling/story for each
my favorite frames find me and you

good/bad/ugly/lost/smiling/broken/laughing
my hand on your hand/your eyes on my eyes/my thoughts in your mind...

"you're not exactly the air i breathe - thank god"
but no - you are
yes - i am

PLEASE JUST LEAVE MY THOUGHTS!

losing who i really am
hockey sticks/sparkles/16th note triplet runs
SAUNA SAUNA SAUNA!

a million frames of light
a million thoughts of you
i've lost my path
- forgotten to breathe -
ah goddess, help me!
thoughts are incomplete - a ghost of madness
finds my pen my thoughts my eyes
"the only war that matters is the war against the imagination all other wars are subsumed in it!"

the war against my dresm/thoughts/a million frames of light
proper essay form - not quite surrealism
DAMNIT POLLOCK, DON'T YOU KNOW WHAT YOU'RE DOING?!?

lost in my mind/the lights - the million frames of light
a splatter of paint on canvas/my heart against your wall
shattered glass/broken lights - no thoughts
glitter on cracked pavement/broken dreams

hidden in my newspapered hamster cage scrapbook
lost
DON'T TRY TO FIND ME.


(march 2002)