never enough, not enough, & never ending
confused.
i'm treading on ground unbroken
well...for me
but i don't know if this is even where i'm walking,
if i even want to
perplexed.
such negative feedback!
and from every side!
i have no reason to join thier chorus -
but do i want to, have to, rebel against it?
confounded.
a look or two, comments, a smile.
a few jokes, your arms, find me.
questions with another name.
but is all yet said and done?
clarified.
i am trading on ground unbroken,
butnot the first, nor last.
i really am, i will continue forward.
i want to be here this time.
decided.
they can keep their comments to themselves.
they are, after all, supposed to be on my side.
there is not reason to sing along!
i don't have to, but i can rebel!
determined.
i'll look back, comment, smile.
your glance, your arms, will find me.
my name will be unquestioned.
i'm tired of second best, it's my turn.




(january 2003)